I keep promising to write more often, just as I promise: to call, or write, or text, or make dinner plans with ___, or…
It seems I’ve found myself feeling somewhat disconnected from a desire for a lot of social “obligations”. I’ve even let go of most of my social media endeavours lately. I can’t say that it’s simply a case of having felt overwhelmed with work or other pursuits. True, I haven’t really been getting enough sleep lately, and my life has felt very full. Overall, there have been a lot of good things that have transpired in the past few months. I think that the simplest explanation/description I can give is this…
I’m going through a kind of transitional period in my life, sorting through some emotions, shifting some sights, and changing some behaviours.
It’s definitely a time of renewal and I’m making the most of it. The only strange thing I’m experiencing is that the things I thought I knew about myself, and the ways I spent my time, are shifting and changing, and I’m not quite caught up with everything. Like living in a new home, I’m not fully settled in, despite my excitement and exhilaration. It’s time to let some things go for good this time, and to find new ways to spend my time and energy.
It’s also a time of appreciation for me. I have so many good people and things in my life. I really want to appreciate them more, and make those loved ones see how much I value them. I also want to take better care of myself, and to take time to really nurture myself in all ways.
I keep saying it here, but I really want to post here more often. I think I’m too often caught up in the desire to only be a certain kind of entertaining, or a particular voice of insightfulness. I want to communicate with more abandon, with more rawness and candour.
There are many ways to be an exhibitionist. There are many ways to be honest. Time to explore more of all of this in 2013.
